Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock by Matthew Quick


TitleForgive Me, Leonard Peacock
Author: Matthew Quick
Format: Audiobook
My Rating★★★★ (4.5 Stars)


Not to his former best friend, whose torments have driven him to consider committing something tragic and horrific.

Nor to his mum who’s moved out and left him to fend for himself. But to his four friends.
A Humphrey-Bogart-obsessed neighbour
A teenage violin virtuoso
A pastor’s daughter
A teacher

Most of the time, Leonard believes he’s weird and sad but these friends have made him think that maybe he’s not.

He wants to thank them, and bid them farewell.

My Thoughts:

So many feels!

This book is about a boy named, you guessed it, Leonard Peacock. He plans to commit an act of murder/suicide. His target: a classmate at his school. Now, I don’t want to give away anything so I won’t go into very much detail about why he has picked this specific target.  I will say, however, that this target is a bully to Leonard and he does absolutely horrible things to him. They do have a history and the book goes into so much more detail about things that have occurred between thees two boys.

This book pulled at my heartstrings. I am fascinated by psychology so this book spoke volumes to me. So many people suffer from depression and other mental illnesses. Their friends and families are not even aware of it most of the time. For example, Leonard’s mom seems to be oblivious to the fact that her son is crying for help. This would also be a good time to point out that I absolutely cannot stand Leonard’s mom. Her character is just someone who is very easy to loathe. Her blatant disregard for her own son is appalling on so many different levels. Her characteristics are a prime example of why teenagers feel like no one understands them. I know that when I was growing up, a lot of times I felt like my parents just didn’t get it, but I was (thankfully) never brushed off as an annoyance like Leonard was by his mother.

I believe that this book could and probably has been really helpful to teenagers struggling with depression and thoughts of suicide. There are, what I would consider to be, “triggers” throughout the book, so please keep that in mind. But the book does offer some examples of exercises that could be done to bring yourself through the pain and struggles of depression.

With that being said, I highly recommend this book. To anyone. Because let’s be honest, even if you aren’t suffering from depression yourself, I can guarantee that someone you know is. And the friends that Leonard did have seemed to pick up on it. If anything, this book will give you a little insight into what to look for when it comes to someone who is suffering from depression and may be planning to commit suicide. Make yourself aware, because that awareness could save a life.

Favorite Quotes:

“People should be nice to you, Leonard. You’re a human being. You should expect people to be nice.”

“First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.”

“Not letting the world destroy you. That’s a daily battle.”

“So the key is doing something that sets you apart forever in the minds of regular people. Something that matters.”

“Different is good. But different is hard.”